Only Now

No one can live a moment ago. That’s gone, it’s finished. It can be recalled, yet when you are recalling it, the only actuality it’s got is what you are giving it in the moment.

No one can live a moment in the future. You can anticipate and imagine the future, but you can’t live in the future.

If you’re not recalling the past, nor imagining or anticipating the future, where does that leave you? It leaves you here, in this presence-awareness, which is clear and empty.

All this concern about trying to live in the now, look at it the other way — just try to get out of the now if you can. What’s the point of trying to live in something you can’t get out of?

~ From: A Sprinkling of Jewels, by Sailor Bob Adamson www.sailorbobadamson.com


Greetings to you this day.  I am Jeshua.  And I have come, as always, to discuss with you A Course in Miracles.  You have been struggling, as it were, for some time, about some words, which I have placed in A Course in Miracles.  And those words are these- “The script is written.” (W pI,158,4:2)

And what I have told with you with those words is that for everything that seems to happen here, it has already been done.  The time when each of you shall come to understand the truth of who you are is set.  It is in the script.  It is just as if it has been placed at a certain frame on the film that you play out, that you call your life. And only when you arrive at that frame and that moment, that seeming moment in your time, will you truly understand.

And I have said to you that time only seems to go in one direction.  Time only seems to go in one direction.  And all of this can present such a dilemma for you, can it not?

Here, in your earthly life, what can you do? I have told you that always when you come to the point in time when you understand, when you come to your moment of awakening, you will realize in that same moment the truth that – There was nothing I needed to do.

But your question for today goes even beyond that. For indeed, is there anything that you can do at all?  If you are impatient to know the peace of God, can you, in your time, speed up the process?  Can you be diligent and make the moment come sooner in your time?  Does the time of your study, the time of your contemplation, the time of your simply being silent, does any of that make any difference at all?  Or will you simply one day awaken, and say, “Aha, I see.”

Now I have told you, have I not, so many times, that this world never happened.  And I have told you that this world is but illusion.  It is not real.  And do you know one of the aspects of reality itself – reality is imbued with creative power.  That which is real is of God.  You are of God.  Because you, the reality of what you are—you are real . But this world, ah—’tis not real.

And what does that include?  That includes your bodies.  They are not real.  That includes the aspects you see of space and time, the skies and the heavens, the earth about you, the flowers and the trees — none of it is real.  ‘Tis but a figment of imagination, if you will.

And this is part of what I have told you, but is so difficult for you.  The thoughts you think you think are not real.  The thoughts of which you are aware are not real thoughts.  And that means this, as I have told you—The thoughts you think you think, the thoughts of the brain, if you will, the thoughts of space and time, are not real.  And as such, hear me well, they have no creative power

So can you, of your thinking, of your planning, of your struggling, of your doing things here, change anything, do anything at all?  And the answer must be no.  The answer must be no.

This is the fundamental struggle that you, insofar as you believe yourself to be your ego, this is the fundamental struggle that you must deal with.  And I have spoken to you and called it the authority problem.  As ego, as a conscious thinking being, here, who seems to have life, and seems to have choice, and would seem to perhaps have power associated with your choices, is there anything you can do?  And the answer is — no.

Consider for a moment—what if that were not so?  What if you, in your conscious thinking, could in fact change your mind and see your life or your world change?  Then that would demand that your thinking, the thoughts of this world, had creative power.  Suppose that you could, with your body, do acts, do things that would change your world.  That would mean that bodies had within them creative power.  And that would mean that the thoughts of consciousness, the body itself, would be of God That which has creative power must be God Itself, just as you, in your reality, have creative power and are God.

How Can I “Make a Difference?”

So how do you deal with this issue, if I tell you, as I truly am telling you, that nothing that you do in your life makes any difference at all?  And one of your great passions, one of your great concerns in being loving and pursuing the spiritual path—for most of you, for so many of you—is that you say, “I want to make a difference.  I want, when my life is over, to be able to stand tall and say, ‘I made a difference.  I changed my world.”‘ And do you know what that is?  Truly, that is but the voice of the ego crying out not to die.

Ask yourself this—if this world is not real, if it is but illusion, if it has no effect of any kind, in all of eternity—then why would it matter whether your life here makes a difference?  That too is but illusion.  So if you would be a student of A Course in Miracles, if you would be a teacher of A Course in Miracles, if you would be the writer of books, the sharer of wisdom through lectures or speaking engagements, or workshop does any of that matter?  And the answer truly is – it does not.

Such harsh words, are they not?  For have I not just told you that all of your struggling, everything you would do to seek to accomplish good in your life, matters not at all.  Do you recall that I said in A Course in Miracles, “Your only goal is to accept the Atonement for yourself?”  And do you recall the words I spoke in A Course in Miracles, that experience cannot be given directly.  The only thing you have to offer is the vision of Christ, the vision of the Holy Spirit.

And vision itself, hear me well, has no power to change.  Vision is but the experience that you have within yourself when you, in a moment, see this world differently, when you forgive this world.  And that, as I have told you, is your only function, to forgive this world, to forgive yourself, to forgive your brother, to forgive me, and to forgive God Itself.

Have you heard these words at the core of your being?  You forgive through vision.  You forgive not through action, not through doing, not through trying, above all not through studying and struggling and dialoging, if you will.

So what does that mean?  What it means is — you must hear these words I speak this day, and these words which you will find in A Course in Miracles as you look for them—it means that you must take those words and experience them.  For if you do not, or until you do, you will not know the peace of God.  Hear me well.

So if your life matters not — ah, did I say that?  Did I say your life matters not?  Or did I say that there is nothing you can do to change anything?.  There is a difference.  There truly is nothing you can do to bring about sooner the moment of your awakening.  And if you feel that you are awakened already and wish to give the gift to your brothers and sisters, there is nothing you can do whatsoever to hasten the moment of their awakening, as well.  The script is written.  The time is set.

Time but seems to flow in one direction.  What does that mean?  You believe in cause and effect.  And you believe in cause and effect being separate.  That ultimately is the belief in your time.  For you believe that an action, a thought, a word, a deed, now, will result in change.  The word “will” speaks of the future- do you hear?  You believe that a word, an action, a thought, now, can affect what you see as the future.  And it is absolutely not so.

I have told you that every single moment of your time is totally independent of every other moment of your time.  That is what it means to say that cause and effect are not separate.  In the absence of time, the Son of God imagines whatever he will, and in that instant, it is done.  There cannot be delay.  Delay is but illusion.

And so all of your struggling to become is but your desire to worship time, and to hallow what you would call the future, the result.  And it is the grandest delusion of the ego to believe that what you call the future is the result of the past.  And if it is, then you can further delude yourself into believing that what you did in one moment affected the next.  And thus you believe that you have creative power.

The nature of God, the fact that time itself does not exist, makes it impossible that such could be the case.  In this moment, you either know the peace of God, or you do not.  And the next moment is the same, the next is the same, the next is the same, the next is the same.  And creative spirit, which sits at the core of your being, always knows the peace of God.

Did you, Mind, cease creating for a moment to make up a world of illusion?  Hear me well.  To create is to be.  And to cease to create would be to cease to be.  Mind never sleeps.  It is creating every moment.  That I have told you.  And what is it that mind creates— nothing but love.  For that is all there is.

This world, I tell you—and this fact lies at the core of your forgiveness—this world, every aspect of it, is love being expressed.  And in your forgiveness, when you awaken, in your moment of awakening, you will know that to be true.  And that shall be the forgiveness that you seek.  And in your forgiveness, you shall find the peace of God.

Can you, from within the framework of the ego, from within consciousness, can you rationalize, can you discuss and discover, can you debate and find, can you figure out how it is that this world is nothing but love?  Hear me well. Absolutely not.  It is the framework of this world, which imprisons you.  It is that framework which you use to form that which you call ego, that which you believe yourself to be, but which you are not.  From within the domain of the ego, you can not discover, you can not find vision, the vision of the Holy Spirit, the vision of your One Self, the vision of Christ, the vision of God.  They are all the same.

How then can you find the peace of God?  Do you remember that I have told you—you have but one choice in this world—to which voice shall you listen?  One choice—to which voice shall you choose to listen? I have told you that there is nothing you can do to hasten the moment of yours or your brother’s awakening.  Your only goal is to forgive.  Your only goal is to accept the Atonement for yourself, which is exactly the same thing.

There truly is nothing you can do.  For if it were not so, this world would be imbued with creative power, and would be real.  And that which you pretend to see would be God Itself.  And the universe would be a place of fear and horror.  And it is not so.  Hear me well.

How do you choose to listen to the Voice of God?  How do you choose to hear the Holy Spirit?  For when you do make that choice, then what will fill your awareness is the vision of Christ.  For truly then, your One Self, the Holy Spirit, I, God Itself, were He to choose to look upon this world, would see with vision, and would see nothing but love.

How do you choose to do that?  There is but one way.  For the choice you have of which voice to which you shall listen is not really a choice at all.  So even in the sense of choosing which voice you shall hear, there is still nothing you can do.  Hear me well.  For this I have told you before.

The Holy Spirit, the Voice of God, the bringer of the vision of Christ, speaks with the quietest of whispers you could ever imagine.  The truth is this, my brothers—you hear the Voice of God in your silence.  The only choice you have is the choice to be still, to cease the workings of your conscious mind.  For when you do not think, you are free of the busyness of this world, you are no longer burning with a passion to dialogue, or debate, or study, or think, or to use your thoughts to become—when you are free of that, then in your silence there comes a whisper— the Voice of the Holy Spirit.

And as you sit in your silence for more than a moment, then there will come exactly this, a vision.  And arising out of your silence, you will be given a new world.  But nothing will have changed at all.  You will be given a new world because, as you look upon your world and experience this world here beyond the domain of the ego, you will come face to face with the vision of Christ.  And everything you see will be the Love of God.  And everything you experience will be the Love of God.

And what will you do in your life?  You will celebrate.  For the fullness of the awareness of that Love will make it impossible for you not to do so.  Hear me well this day.  That is the measure of your forgiveness.  As you look upon your world, do you see nothing but love?  As you look upon your world do you see nothing but love in action?  As you look upon your world are you filled with joy and wonder at it all?  And as you look upon your world are you filled with a total peace that desires to change nothing?  For why would anyone desire to change the perfect Love of God?  Do you see?

Then what do you do in your life, if all of your doing matters not?  And this I have told you, as well.  How do you know if you are happy?  Do you contemplate and debate, or do you simply know at the core of your being?  How do you know if you are filled with love?  Do you debate the meaning of Love?  Do you define love and write books about love or do you simply experience that which it is?  And experience, as I have told you, is beyond thought, is beyond your thinking mind, is beyond the domain of the ego.

So what can you do then?  You simply experience your life.  If you would do that, you do not plan one moment in the future, but simply experience your life.  And do you remember those words?  I spoke them even two thousand years ago, and yet again and again.  So many times and places.  And yet again in A Course in Miracles.  If you would simply experience your life, what will you do?  And the answer is so extremely simple that you perhaps have never heard it.  If you would simply experience your life, you will follow the path of your own joy.

Do you think I was joking when I said, “God’s will for you is perfect happiness.”? And when I gave you the affirmation ­God’s peace and joy are mine.  Not at all.  What if your joy does not lead you to study A Course in Miracles?  What should you do?  Follow the path of your own joy.  What if your joy does not lead you to writing books and going to workshops or seminars or dialoging with your brethren about the nature of truth?  What should you do?  You should follow the pathway of your own joy.  I promise you, if you are not following the pathway of your joy, you are nowhere near, at all, the discovery of the peace of God.

Can you speed up your time?  No, indeed.  Can you be joyful in your life?  Yes, you can.  What happens if you truly become silent and open your being, and open your heart, if you will, to the presence of the Holy Spirit, to my presence, to the Voice of God?  What happens if you do that?  Time itself collapses.  I have told you that as well.  Miracles collapse time.  Those are not new words to you, are they?  The only place that time can collapse is in your silence.  The only activities that can possibly bring you to the point of time collapsing are those that bring you joy.

And what is the measure of your joy?  I have told you this also many times.  If you believe you are experiencing joy, then ask yourself—“Can anything of this world threaten my joy?” And if the answer is “yes”, then it is not the joy of God.  It is still the ego clamoring and crying out to be heard, and trying to convince someone, somewhere, that it exists, which of course it does not.

In the moment of your silence, in the moment of your joy, in the moment of the collapse of time, then all of time becomes the same instant Do you hear?  And in that instant—in that instant of the forever of your time, as it collapses into a single moment, the time of your awakening is there.  And I have, have I not, called that moment the Holy Instant, the moment of the miracle.  And that is exactly what it is—the moment of the miracle, the moment in which time collapses.

But remember, you cannot make it happen.  You cannot figure it out.  You cannot dialogue and discover what it is.  You can never, ever, ever, give it as an experience to someone else.  The only thing you can do is enter into your own silence, wherein you listen and are still, and wherein you hear the Voice of God, and wherein you gain the vision of Christ, and wherein you see a new world—not a world that has been changed, but the same world seen anew.

And in that moment, you will no longer see a world of illusion.  Illusion will pass away, including the illusion of time.  And in the moment of forever, you shall awaken.  And in your awakening, you will have within you the vision of Christ.

Can you force it upon your brothers?  No, indeed.  But as you hold that vision, then it is present for anyone and everyone, throughout all of space and time, past, present and future, to experience and to celebrate.  And in your own moment of experiencing that vision, truly as I have told you, your silence and the joy to be found therein, make you, without effort, the saviour of the world.  And your life, moment upon moment, shall become blessed in ways beyond what you can comprehend, even though the moments of your space and time have changed not one iota.

My blessings upon you all.  That is all.

Dr. Brent Haskell, Ph.D., D.O. has published two prior books of messages from Jeshua: Journey beyond Words, 1994 and The Other Voice 1997. These books are published by DeVoors, Marina del Rey, CA. and were received as companions to A Course in Miracles.

Diary of a Christ Communicant

What we perceive as the conscious mind is really the unconscious – or, more meaningfully, the unaware, or unawake, or slumbering – mind. This is inevitable to a mind that has shut itself off from reality. Reality is the Creator Spirit – Papa – and His One Son, created in His likeness: Love. That One Son is who we all are, though perceiving ourself through the body’s senses causes us to seriously doubt that. And this is precisely what our body’s senses are devised to do – shut us off from our true Self: Papa’s beloved Son, in whom He is well pleased. This is how Jesus says it:

Shut off from your Self, which remains aware of Its likeness to Its Creator, your Self seems to sleep, while the part of your mind that weaves illusions in its sleep appears to be awake. (ACIM, W-68.2:1)

If we are willing to accept this statement as true (I have yet to hear a statement from Jesus that was not true 🙂 we can readily see how our mind is utterly confused, lost in the wilderness of forgetfulness. For our true Self is not asleep; never sleeps; is eternally Awake to reality because reality is eternal. And only a mind – or part thereof – that weaves illusions and believes them to be real must be dreaming, socannot be awake. The appearance of wakefulness to time and place can only occur to the body’s senses but never to our true Self. This evinces the illusory nature of bodies.

Jesus explains, in that same section of ACIM, that this effect is caused by holding grievances, or judgments, against our brothers. The effect is unavoidable because holding a grievance is denial of truth, of reality, so the only alternative is to experience unreality. We can onlyexperience as real what we believe is real. To hold a grievance, or make a judgement, about a brother is to see him as he is not and yet believeit is as he is. That is possible only to a confused, upside-down mind.

To see our brother as he is not is to see ourself as we are not because we have projected an image of what we have in our mind – our self-perception – onto him, which is then simply reflected back to us. Thus, by judging a brother we are actually judging ourself. Jesus told us this two thousand years ago:

Judge not, that ye be not judged. Condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. Forgive, and ye shall be forgiven.(Mt.7:1,2 & Lk. 6:37)

These statements have been widely construed as meaning we are judged by Papa, but this cannot be Jesus’ intention or he would have said as much. Further, he states we are judged/condemned by the same– namely, our own – judgement/condemnation. In like manner this applies also with forgiveness.  This is simply the functioning of PLFs and is not a wrathful, vengeful God, out to get us if we put a foot wrong. Only a mind with such a belief could attribute it to its perception of God. For in that same Workbook lesson, Jesus states:

It is as sure that those who hold grievances will redefine God in their own image, as it is certain that (the) God (of Love) created them like Himself, and defined them as part of Him. (W-68.3:1)

In the same manner that Papa created His Son in His own likeness, so can His Son create only in his likeness. And if the Son sees himself as he is not, his creations will be perceived as they are not, because the PLFs have to work regardless of the distortion of their application. When the Son sees truly, he creates truly; when he sees through a glass, darkly, he creates darkly, and projects that darkness onto the brother that his miscreation has made – in his own, perceived, likeness.

We can say to ourself:

‘I choose to see myself only as and in my wholeness because only wholeness can be one with Papa. By choosing to see myself as lessthan whole – broken; fragmented; imperfect – I am keeping myself separate from Wholeness/Holiness, which is Papa. This I can choose to cease doing NOW, because there is only NOW, and I Know Papa is not keeping me from Himself, so it can only be my misperceptions of myself that are causing my sense of separation from Him and my brother.

‘When I choose to see a brother as less than whole, complete, perfect, that is my choice for myself, because there is only one of us, so I am seeing but a reflection of myself. By attempting to separate myself from my brother, by judging or holding a grievance against him, I am merely separating myself from Papa AND from my Self.

‘This means I am choosing to see myself in a state of mind that is incomplete, unwholesome, insane. By continuing to choose to see my brother as unwholesome I am choosing to perpetuate my sense of separation from Wholeness, which is Papa and my true Self. But when I forgive my brother and bless him I am helping in his Awakening; thus am I forgiving, blessing and helping my ownAwakening, in which I see us both as we really are.’

Jesus is our exemplar, and it is obvious that if we desire to be like him we must choose to think like him. This means abandoning the lexicon of the ego, which includes terms such as death, fear, guilt, sickness, scarcity, loneliness, abandonment, despair, conflict… none of which is real. We made them up. Instead, let us replace those terms with those of the Spirit of Truth, which, unsurprisingly, is the opposite of the ego’s, such as Life, Love, innocence, wholeness, abundance, oneness, acceptance, joy, peace… Just as Jesus did.

Happily, there IS no ‘death’. The body cannot die because it was never alive; just a little mound of clay that we chose to animate for a span and then lay aside. And the soul cannot die because it was never born; it is eternal, unchangeable, perfect; just like its Creator. Jesus told us this two-thousand years ago and we still haven’t got it. But he is telling us again, NOW. This time we can choose not just to listen but to actually hear, and accept the truth of eternity unto ourself. And LIVE it. Only if we live the truth as shown to us by Jesus will it truly set us free. How could it be otherwise?

Love and blessings for abundant inner peace and joy,

Brian Longhurst